Sunday, January 31, 2010

A Red Thread?

So the Chinese believe in a "red thread":

"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet,
regardless of time, place or circumstance,
the thread may stretch or tangle,
but it will never break."

Those of us in the China adoption community talk a lot about the red thread and are able to look back and see those little threads leading us to our children.

Well, I think I could have found another red least I hope so.

Last night, I was looking through my Frank*lin Plan*ner (which I can't live without). I use the "week at a glance" pages and the pages I buy have a weekly inspirational quote listed at the top. Our FET is scheduled for February 18, pregnancy test February 25.

As I looked at what I had on my plate during those weeks, I noticed the "quote" for the week of our test. It's the SAME QUOTE posted on our frig that I typed and printed *over 7 months ago*. A quote I found online and one that defines my reason for doing one more IVF...the fact that I did not want to look back at age 50 with regret.

How is it possible that THAT SPECIFIC QUOTE is the one listed for the week of our BETA, our last chance at this whole thing? Those words have been my inspiration all along.

Wow. It made me say "wow" out loud. At the minimum it's a reminder that we made the right choice with "one more try" so I won't look back with regret. I would love to think it's a red thread to our little Frosty. We shall see.

Update: Actually, it's the quote listed at the right margin of my blog, forgot I had it here, too. I am still shocked at this coincidence.

Friday, January 22, 2010

ICLW Hello!

Hey gals. Welcome!

We are about to start an FET cycle. My last attempt at ART. I have been trying to conceive off and on since 1995. We adopted two daughters in the middle and for much of that time I was on BCP for endo it's not like a surprise baby was going to be conceived.

Infertility has altered who I am. It has made me feel like less of a woman.

I am at the end of the road for ART...this one beautiful excellent/excellent frozen blastocyst is it. He will be transferred next month and we will see what happens.

(((hugs))) to all of you on a similar journey.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

FET Stories Needed

Is there a blog where I can find lots and lots of FET stories? I have scrolled through Cyclesista. Are there any other sites? If you have an FET story to share, please leave a comment so I can read about your experience.

Frosty is getting transferred in February.

Friday, January 08, 2010

New Year

Did everyone just hear the screaming in my house? Holy Moly!

I posted to my FAMILY blog but it was a post meant for HERE! The words that flew out of my mouth! Thank goodness it wasn't Face*book! :O Whew, successfully deleted but now I have to rewrite my post. looks like 2010 will be the year of Frosty. We will transfer him in the next few months. There is no rush for *him* but I need closure. Need to know where this is all going once and for all.

I am really dreading the PIO b/c my bum still hurts from the last round. I think I have permanent nerve damage.

I said this last time but *have* to mean it this time....I am getting older and DE IVF is just too expensive to do it again....this is gonna "be it". We all have a cross to bear...and infertility will always be mine.

Hugs to all.