Here we go again!

Lu*pron starts Monday, June 4! My protocol is different this time since my "old" ovaries are so powerful. When we started cycle #1 and I saw that the microdose Lu*pron protocol was used for women "my age", I felt a little inferior or something. The new protocol now has me on Lu*pron two weeks before stims...older woman...ha!

I have been sad being away from this project and I am happy to get back on track!

Why June seems like a bad month

So, at 1AM last night my eyes popped wide open.

We can't do this is June....I will have unsightly bruises on my legs (and abdomen if I give injections to myself). How on earth does anyone do IVF in the summer and still go out in public wearing a swimsuit?

Women of Blogland....explain THAT to me!

In a holding pattern

Hello neglected blogdom.

A few of you have checked in and I am so sorry to have been away for so long. You are thoughtful to be looking in on us here in limbo land.

As you know, the ovaries overpowered the Lu*pron...IVF cycle #1 was stopped. Shortly after that little surprise we learned that our good friend with cancer was indeed dying and no longer fighting. We watched her decline for weeks and then she slipped away April 28 while at home with her husband and parents.

Breast. Cancer. Sucks. There are oh-so-many other words I could use but won't in this forum.

She was 44.

Her daughter is 6.

We declined the offer to start up again with a May cycle b/c we knew our friend was dying and did not want to be doing this amidst such sadness. The day of the memorial service I got it all out. In case anyone has ever wondered, it IS possible to cry nonstop for hours at a time. Oh, and if you feel the need to do that much crying, may I suggest adding several glasses of red wine to the mix and voila! you have one heckuva mourning process underway. It had been building up for weeks...the dying process, her death, waiting one week on the memorial...these things had all numbed my emotions...I was 'stuck' between happy and sad. Once it was released, the peaceful healing process had taken over and continues today. Life continues. We move on. IVF treatments start again.

With all of that behind us, this whole thing is still dicey. Ivan is going fishing in Canada in June...smack dab in the middle of when I would be taking Lu*pron injections. Folks, June is IT until school starts (well after school starts, actually, b/c I am on two PTO boards and the whole starting school thing is stressful and busy with open house nights and meetings). Our schedule is so full I often wonder why we are doing this! If we can't "fit in" the cycle, how can we squeeze in the kidlet? ;)

I think I am going to do to a "test" injection (a dry run) next week to see if I can indeed give my own injections b/c if the cycle is gonna happen I am gonna have to get brave REAL quick!

PLEASE give me your advice and remind me that I CAN do this! You brave women do injections all of the time...yes?

Thanks for hanging with me. I hope we are back on track soon.