Yep, beautiful lining and an "excellent excellent" blast waiting for us and yet I can muster zero enthusiasm.
It's official, ART has finally broken me. Normally I would be excited that my lining looks good and that our FET is next week. Sadly, I am numb to the entire process. I had to put on a fake happy face for my GYN who did the ultrasound.
You all know what I mean about the thrill of excitement when you start a new cycle. With each injection, blood draw, ultrasound, etc., we are in control (for once) of our fertility...we are actively working to set the stage for a pregnancy. With every month of TTC and then the six IUI's, our first IVF, FET, second IVF, I had such a surge of energy that "this time could be the time". With every cycle all systems were "go", everything looked "good" and yet we had nothing but disappointment every time.
This is not a pity post. Just a sad realization that the up and down of it all has finally removed any sense of joy or hope for this process.
PIO starts tomorrow. FET on Thursday 2-18.
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