Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Still hangin

It's been a busy spring here....as usual! The monthly horse shows have started up again and life is a flurry of school activities. With the economy as crappy as it is, I just cannot in good conscience spend savings on IVF.

My heart is wounded and I guess always will be. I am getting to a point that being pregnant would be downright silly. I will be 40 next year and am not willing to go much past that using donor eggs to get pregnant. If you have seen the movie Ba*by Ma*ma, you see that the poked fun at "older" women giving birth....the character in the movie is clearly in her 50's....yeah, ick. I don't want to be one of those women getting "raised eyebrows" thrown her way. I would say giving birth by 42 would be my goal.

Beyond the age thing...I honestly feel really, really tired any time I think about caring for an infant again! At this point I have children who are self sufficient! They sleep in! I have friends who adopted for the first time in their late 40's...I don't know how in their 50's they are chasing around children under age 5! I guess those little ones keep you young.

Sending warm wishes to my fellow infertility bloggers.


Samantha said...

Hey AshPash,

Thanks for checking in with us. There's a lot of complicating factors in decided whether or not to pursue treatment. I hope you can reach a place to heal your wounds.

deirdre said...

Hi, have you heard of the CEC, or excision surgery? It can help women with endometriosis. If you have endo, and do IVF, you can still have problems. Look into it!

centerforendo.com, endoexcision.com, endometriosissurgeon.com

deirdre said...

ps. please be careful about offending women who are over 40 and having children. There are many out there

AshPash said...

286Concerning giving birth and age...I DO think giving birth in your 50's is too old (i.e. the character in the movie I mentioned). In your 40's using donor eggs...don't really have an opinion one way or the other..to each his own. BUT FOR ME, age 42 or so is *my* limit.

Hope2morrow said...

I, too, have endometriosis and am struggling to get pregnant. It is a very fustrating road, but it is great that you already have two children through adoption. I'm anxious to hear what decisions you make in the future.

Duck said...

That is a lot to think about, I agree, I see women, far far closer to 50 then to 40 at my clinic, and in my town, all pregnant, it's a little weird for me (especially because i'm 20 plus years younger then them and no babies over here).

Rumour Miller said...

A year ago you posted on my blog during one of my darker days... I am sorry to say that I did not notice your comment.

I am re-reading some of my posts and came across your comment and couldn't believe that I never saw it and never visited your blog... I'm here now. Will take me a while to catch up though.